Any straight men had a gay experience in the past? What was it and how did you feel?

I'm a 60 year old male now, but about 21 years ago when I was 39 and living in Southern California with my gf I had to do a plumbing call at a home near San Diego, it was a leak under a bathroom sink of the guest house, a man about 58 or 60 yes old , 5′8″ about 150 lbs, tan, in good shape answered and showed me to the guest house, he said he had to go back to his office in main house and to do what I needed to to fix the leak, when I opened the doors to the sink cabinet the first thing I noticed was porn magazines , but they were all naked men with other men, a couple of mags on top were of men with huge cocks. I quickly found the leak and repaired it with a new supply line.I found myself turning pages and staring at massive cocks being sucked and guys being dominated by massive cocks, I started to feel my cock get harder the more I looked at huge thick cock, and as I came to the back few pages, 6 or 7 pictures fell out on the bathroom floor, I quickly gathered them up so as to not be caught. I looked at a few and there was 2 men ,1 was in various positions like on his knees, on his back, his head over edge of bed, his head on stomach of guy 2, but never a face shot of him. Guy 2 had a huge thick cock and was having his way with guy 1, I didn't know why at the time ,why my cock was so hard, and why was I so turned on by this? And just then the customer startled me and was right behind me, I fumbled try to put back the pics and magazine, when I stood up and turned around ,Dave, that was his name, was smirking and asked if I liked anything I saw, I quickly realized that my very hard cock was very visible, I got very nervous he would call my company and tell them about my state and the mags and pics, I stuttered something about doing additional work at no charge, he smiled and told me to give him my number, and that he would call in a day or so ,idid and left.

Dave texted me an address by his house on Thursday evening, and reminded me of my agreement, the address was a nice hotel ,he left room key at desk for me and said he would be there in 20 minutes, and I should shower while waiting, I started to get nervous, not knowing what his plans were, but was surprisingly excited ,so I showered and put on some shorts and sat on the bed just as he came in the room

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2 days later Dave calls and says he wants me to come back over on Friday, I asked him what other plumbing issues he had, he said I would see when I met him on Friday. He then said he wanted me there by 9 am, and to not be late because there was a lot for me to do, I said I will not be late, he then asked again about what I liked about the pics he had, I was speechless, he then asked what about what I saw got my cock so hard, I just blurted out that it was the size of the cock on guy 2, he then said that was him, I giggled and said yeah sure, all the guys say there hung and end up being 6 inches, he then shocked me again and said it was him and that his cock when fully hard is 9 1/2″ to 10" long and 7 “ thick, I said yeah ok, he then said he would prove it when came on Friday, and that if he was that big that I would have to agree to do everything he tells me to do without question, I giggled again and said sure, I agree.

We hooked up 4 times after, each time I did exactly what he told me, it was the hottest experience I've ever had with a man.

He wad wearing tennis shorts and a poloshirt.

Hi everybody! I have been looking at posts on narcs and narc abuse on here and if has really helped me out a lot. I am currently struggling with my situation and need some advice/support. I met a narc last year, everything seemed to good to be true. Love bombing, always texting calling and taking me on dates. Everything changed when someone warned me about him out in public in front of him and who he is. This caused a conflict with us and the love bombing seized. he would tell me that everything is okay and i can come and talk. He would set a time limit on me and kick me out after that. he would then text me like everything was fine and we hung out again and after that he completely ghosted me for one week. He came back and texted me a week later laughing about the ghosting and acting like nothing had happened. he continued to text me ( not like in the beginning) make plans with me, then on the day of the plans he would just ghost me. One day he would act interested the next silence. i contacted him a month later and he acted like nothing happened. He was on a vacation and sent me a picture of another woman ( someone he allegedly met on the trip) to strike a reaction but i never gave him one. After the trip he came to my place and was extremely rude, accusing me of going on dates with a bunch of men. The next day he accused me of being an alcoholic and that he wanted nothing to do with me but said well maybe we can be "friends" then ghosted me i assumed at this point it was over and i would never hear from him again. He contacted me on the holiday a month later acting like everything was great. We ended up hanging out a month or so later and when we hung out it went well, i thought things were going in the right direction. after we hung out.. silence. I would try to text him and if he replied it would be very short then he just stopped replying. He ghosted me for almost three months. I thought he was done this time and of course he popped up again like nothing happened. At this point i was getting sick of if so i questioned him as to why he dissapeared and always does this. Of course he had some sob story about a injury and family member dying of cancer. I felt pity for him and he gave me an apology.. so i took him back stupidly. things seemed to be going smooth for a couple months, of course until his family member died and his injury got better he never contacted me and was distant. Menawhile, i was there for him during the difficult time for him. He lied to me about the funeral and never wanted to chat. I was chasing him and he would always claim nothing was wrong but when i said i thought he used me when he was down he could not handle it and would always tell me he didnt care and to go away. I would get so upset i would try texting him to work it out he would barelt respond and if he did he would not be nice about it. we did hang out a couple times after that, he would ignore me after. One day i was like hey i think you are seeing someone else, and i was like well ixam seeing someone so no problem if you are he said " buy bye good luck with your new guy stop contacting me" i was devastated and tried to get into contact with him for weeks then i just gave up and accepted it was over. He ended up contacting me a month later acting like everything was fine. He wanted to go out and have drinks i told him i would. He and i both seemed to have a great time. He ends up ignoring me again. I kept texting him trying to figure out what was wrong. He kept saying everything was fine and i said ok can we hang out again? He said maybe i was like why? He just kept saying maybe … our last conversation we had… i said what is wrong ? He said nothing is wrong everything is fine. I asked him why he keeps saying maybe. He said " maybe but i dont want to see you right now" i said why? He saix " im just not feeling it, if i wanted to date i would" i said why did you contact me less then a week ago wanting to go out? He said i didnt.. even though he did. So i said should i just move on or what? He said whatever you want to do. So i said that he was really confusing me and asked him if he had anything more to say before i move on? My messages were turning green so i panicked he blocked me and reacted irrationally. I said " omg did you block me? My messages are not going through. Even texted him on my work phone asking what was up. And called him twice ( please dont judge me i know it is pathetic i never was this type of girl before him) so he replied and said " Ok I'll block you now" then immedietly blocked me. He has never blocked me before since I have met him he will just ghost. Is this ths final discard aka " grand finale? Did i just push him too far? this has upset me so much its hard to even function.

He then said that there was no plumbing work for me today, but that I still had a full day, I asked a full day doing what, he then said, everything I tell you to, starting with kneeling down by the bed so you can see the size of the cock your going to feel all day.i did what he said and knelt in front of him, he said reach up my shorts and feel it ,I did and his soft head was almost out his shorts, he said undo his shorts and slowly pull them down, I did and his flaccid cock popped out, he was telling the truth, he was 7 inches soft, he said are you ready? I looked up and nodded, he proceeded to tell me to put my arms down and open my mouth, he slowly put his huge cock head in my mouth, held my head and slowly fucked my mouth, inch by inch, he started to get bigger and thicker, he then said it takes him a long time to cum and a bit to get fully hard, and that I was going to gag at times, but to just do it, he fucked my mouth for 45 minutes, he was 10 inches and 7 inches thick and making me take as much of it as he wanted, I gagged, but he still stretched my mouth and throat, he got about 7 1/2 “ in my mouth, I was so excited and confused, I came 3 times while he fucked my mouth, he had me in 3 more positions sucking his massive cock, he finally shot a huge amount of cum after 1hour and 20 minutes of him pounding my throat, he said he was going to cum and that it was going in my mouth and throat, it was the first time for me, but he made me take it all, he then slowly pulled his huge thick cock out of my mouth, and then he pushed it all back in again and again.after a bout an hour of rest he was laying on his back on the bed, he said to put my head on his stomach by his cock and open my mouth, he then held my head down while he slowly fucked my mouth again, he said to keep going till he was hard again, 20 minutes later he was full and swollen and stuffing that monster in my mouth, he then said he was going to hold my legs back and stretch my ass open, and that he was going to fuck my ass till I had all of his huge cock inside me, he did exactly that, he was so fucking huge, he stretched my tight asshole so wide, it hurt alot until about 20 later, then he would pull out and then slowly push it back in, stretch ING my opening each thrust ,I came 2 more times taking that massive cock in my ass, he finally came again, and filled my stretched ass with a huge hot load,